Fear of selfies.


Weight- 83.6kg

Waist- 103cm

 Notice I have not posted a selfie today.  Instead, here are two of my favourite buddies- Louie and Pepe.  What a couple of cuties!  About selfies though- I will post some here, I just need to get a little braver.  I have started a new Instagram account ( 52f1t ).  At the moment I'm just following some fit and lovely ladies.  I intend to post progress pics and other things there, because I figure, what better motivation than to declare to the world, that you have begun a transformation?  I mean, it would be super embarrassing to post my intentions and then have it fizzle out after a week and a half...

I'm sure I'm not the only one that fears posting pics of themselves.  I didn't like it before, but now I REALLY don't like it.  I've been unwell for at least 3 years now, after all that time, sedentary behaviour and prednisilone use, I've been feeling bad about my body for a long time.  I tried being kind to myself, after all, it really couldn't be helped...but having a chronic illness does bring you down, and to have your body change doesn't help self-esteem at all.  I certainly don't judge other people the way I judge myself, but at the moment I'm finding that illness, weight gain and perimenopause just really sucks!

So, that's why I'm trying to be very brave about this, and post pictures of myself online. I'm also kinda curious about how much I can change myself.  I've never been in this situation before...can I get ripped at this age?  I have no idea... I do love a project though!

Without further ado...



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